God knows, God gives even if we didn't ask for it but God likes it when we tell Him everything whether it is a needs or a wants

Normally when we want something we prayed and asked God to gave it to us, Right? In my case there are things (material things) that I like to have that I don't prayed or asked God for. Why? First, I reason to my self that there are a lot of more important things that I need to prayed for than praying for those material things. Second, perhaps I'm too shy to asked God for it. But you know what? He gives even if I didn't asked for it. I remember when I was young, when I was, I think grade 2 that a toy called tamagochi become popular and when I was in grade 4 or 5 that a babyG watch also become popular, like many kids of my age, I too would also like to have one. Though I like to have it I didn't asked my Abba Father to gave it to me as a birthday nor a Christmas gift. I didn't even told God about it. But you know what? He gave it to me as a Christmas present. Then I also remember wishing to have a doll house, whenever my mama and I passed by a store, I would look at that doll house with a longing to have it. I even told my self that when I grow up I would one day buy that doll house but God didn't wait for me to grew up to gave me that doll house. He also gave it to me on a Christmas season. Since I enter grade school till I graduated from college my prayers were all about having good grades, the health and safety of my family and friends, and the solution to any problems I had or my family or friends had. But as far as I could remember I didn't asked God for any material things like toys or what. Well there is an instance that I include material things in my prayer but I just can't remember if I actually asked God for it or am I just telling God that I like this certain thing. I may stressed that there's a difference between asking God for something and just telling Him that you like it. Then last night I told God that I like to have this certain gadget. I don't have any means to buy this gadget because we're not well off. Well I didn't asked or pleaded God to gave it to me, I just told Him about it because God likes it when we tell Him what we needs or what we want. Even though He don't gave us all the things we want, We can be sure of one thing, that He gave us all the things we needed to go on in our life.

- 陳錦錦

God's grace is better than amnesia

Have you ever had embarrassing moment that you would want to erase from your memories? Incidents where people even people whom you considered as friends humiliated you, people even your family who look down on you? Or do you want to forget all the hurtful things that people says and do to you? to forget all those talk behind your back? Well me, I super like. I have this problem where it's really hard for me to forget something that people do or say to me. The Bible says to forgive, Yes I forgave those who at times had hurt me but how do you forget it? How do you erased it from your memories? As the saying goes "The wound heals but it leaves a scar". There are times that I wish to have an amnesia so that I won't remember anything especially those memories that I would like to drive out from my subconscious mind. I don't want to remember those moments where people had hurt me, those times where people look down on me and makes me feels that I'm nothing. I would like to erase all those things from my memories because every time that I remember those things I would get depressed and sad and it makes me also look down on my self to the point where my confidence is  little by little evaporating in the air. But behind all those feelings I'm so thankful that I have Jesus, who I know would help me to forget all those ugly feelings. He said "My grace is sufficient for my power is made perfect in weakness". It is my weakness to forget those bad memories but with God's grace I know in time that I would be able to. Though healed wounds leaves a scar, God can and able to remove those scars and the pain it brought into my life. God's grace is better than amnesia.

- 陳錦錦

Longing for someone whom I haven't met yet or have I?

For those who are single, Are you longing to have or to enter in a romantic relationship? Few years ago I thought what would it feels to have a relationship or even to be courted by someone. I have been single for 24 years. I'm one of those people who are included in the tag "NBSB" No boyfriend since birth. No one even tried to court me. In my 24 years of existence I don't even know what it feels to be courted by someone, to received flowers during valentines. Would I get nervous? would my heart beat fast? So curious what it feels like. I even come to the point of asking my younger sister on how did she answered "yes" to her boyfriend when her boyfriend had asked her the question "Would you be my girlfriend?" I even asked her how did her boyfriend asked that question. I also asked my younger brother on how did he asked his girlfriend with that question. That thought and longing to be courted or to be in a romantic relationship didn't lingered in my mind for that long because I have more serious problems to think about than that. I even tell myself that I have a lot of problems and I don't want other things to add more to my pile. Having or being in a romantic relationship is not at all time happy. Why did I said that? Because I saw people who are in a romantic relationship cried and get hurt. I'm in pain because of the problems I'am facing right now and I don't want pain from having a romantic relationship to add to it. So because of it, I haven't been thinking much about romantic relationship not until yesterday. Yesterday I saw pictures from Facebook of my high school classmate who got married. It seems like people of my age are getting married. A numbers of people I know from high school and college got married and already have children, they already have their family of their own. There are also a lot of people around me who not yet married but is in a relationship with someone. Now I'am thinking would I ever come to the point of having a relationship with someone, would I come to the point of getting married and have a family of my own. I'm longing for someone whom I haven't met yet or have I?. longing to be courted by someone and to be in a relationship with someone God has in mind for me. Well in God's time and if  it is His will, I  know that I will meet the right man that God has in mind for me at the right place and at the right time. God has a plan for each and everyone of us and it includes our love life. 

- 陳錦錦