When regret strikes....

Attended a seminar a while ago about PAS update. I'm glad, additional CPE credit units. The speaker was good, the room was lively, there's even some interaction between the audience and the speaker. I felt I was in school again or rather in a review school again. But while listening to the seminar, a realization of regret falls upon me. I could have a better practice of my profession if apply in big firms. Three years ago when I was looking for my first job after passing the board, I did not tried to apply in big firms, I never even tried to pass my application to them. Why??? I'm scared, scared of pressure and expectations, and scared of being rejected. So I just applied in private companies and some medium firms. I got accepted in a private company but I felt that the work was not challenging enough for someone who had passed the board so I resigned. I got my second job in a small firm, I learned a lot especially regulatory compliance. After more than a year I resigned and got a new job near our place, it's also a small firm. I do learn a lot working in a small firm but I think that I could have learn more and have better practice of my profession if I was working in big firms. During the seminars regret strikes me. But I was reminded by this verse: "Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails." I may have a lot of things in my mind for my carreer but it's still God's plan that will prevail. To stop regret from eating me, I relied on that verse. If it is God's will for me to work in big firms I'm sure that God will place me there but since I'm not there then the answer should be clear. Right now, It's not His will for me to be there and I don't know if a time will come that God would put me in that place. But whether that time will come or not I'am rest assured, for God promised "For I know the plans I have for you, plan to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future." I was also reminded of what I felt God had told me before, "If God wants something to happen it will happen and no one not even the devil can prevent it from happening"


- 陳錦錦